But today God graced me with something I desperately needed but didn't ask for: a slightly broader perspective. I was thinking back about the whole struggle to take care of myself and to get sleep. There was a moment there when I truly thought that motherhood was simply too much for me (looking back, I think that moment was the turning point -- giving up was, as it always is, the beginning) and I didn't know what to do. Today is a much better day. We've gotten to where Miss Lilia will take naps in her co-sleeper (used to only take them on my person in some babywearing device), I am in my own routine that helps me sleep better and also feel better on a daily basis, Jeff and I are in a much better groove of communication. We don't have hours-long crying spells anymore, we haven't had thrush in a month, life is much better than it was.
And we are so very blessed and so, very, happy.
Here is my favorite memory from today:
3 comments:
Eww, I had thrush with both my babies too...it's awful, glad yall are over it!
:) we read that book today too, although olivia is not very good at story "listening". If I'd taken pictures, it would look much different. Iris is way ahead of her sister in manners at story time...for now.
You know, everytime I think we've figured stuff out, and gotten into a routine, they switch it up on me and we're back to square one. How's that for encouragement? :)
-melissa (because it won't let me leave a comment the normal way)
It's not so much a feeling that "we've finally got a routine!" (I'm over that, I think!), but that looking back I'm getting a lot more sleep than I was, I shower nearly every day, and life is a lot better than it was. Not a straight line, but generally going up. That's a nice feeling for me. :)
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